snywalker

I feel like I kind of disappeared from this site. I really didn’t, but I was sick so the last thing I cared about was weight lose. But I am feeling better and I am back. It was pretty crazy because my husband was also sick at the same time, so I couldn’t just lay in bed, but we did take turns watching the kids.

I really hope that everyone else is feeling good.

I just wanted to post while I was in a good mood. I tend to post about bad but not good. I’m in a fairly good mood, I have been watching what I eat and exersizing. I’m sick today, so I don’t feel good physically, but at least I’m in a good mood. I think I might have an upper respiratory infection.

I went to college to take a test today. I feel that I did well. Afterwards I decided to go to the store to walk around. I thought that might be a good exersize choice today. I don’t like working out when people are watching, today all of my family was home and since we are remodeling the family room, I didn’t think that I would be able to get away from everyone. I would normally take the dog for a walk then, but today the wind chill was below zero, so the dog didn’t even like the idea of going to the bathroom outside. I though that walking around the store for an hour was an exceptable choice. I didn’t want to say “well I’ll skip today” because I knew that I would end up skipping tomorrow too and probably the next day.

I am half encouraged because you guys are great and I feel as if I am making good lifestyle changes and  half impatient it seems that pounds should leave faster. I just feel as if I’m starting over again. I have never dieted before, but I used to workout a lot and about a month after I finally fit in my goal pants, I got pregnant again. I really love my family, but I feel like I’m starting over again and I have no muscle tone in my stomach (and I gained 50 lbs. during my pregnancy) But I know that I will lose it all as long as I can keep this up. I just want to tell everyone to just keep going, we can do this together.

I’m feeling down today. I am trying to keep upbeat, but I’m really stressed today. I’m tired it’s been a long day and I just want junkfood. I had to go get my packets for school today. It is going to be a long semester. One of the classes that I thought would be easy seems to have a lot of work (Music Appreciation-I mean come on) I lost an e-bay auction, I didn’t have time for housework and the kids were fighting like crazy today. Now it’s late and the baby keeps waking up. I’m sorry for being so depressing this time, but I am just ready for this day to end.

OK, the good news is that on Friday when I weighed myself I had lost 3 lbs. I know thats not a huge amount, but I was so scared that I wouldn’t see any improvement.

The bad news is that I wasn’t very good over the weekend. We went up to my dad’s to celebrate Christmas (yeah, I know it’s January, but it was the first chance we had) I wasn’t in charge of the food, so I spent the whole weekend just trying to pick out the lesser of two evils. I also wasn’t able to workout, because there was always people around and I don’t like an audience.

Now I don’t feel good. I feel tired and lethargic. I was feeling better and was starting to get in the habit of working out, now I feel like I’m starting over again.

OK I have never dieted before, and I was really confused this morning. The cereal I thought was a healthy choice ended up being higher in fat and calories (200 calories and 1 gram of fat) than the sugary cereal (110 calories and .5 grams of fat) however it is a lot higher in potein and dietary fiber (6g of protein and 6g of dietary fiber compared to 1g protein and 0g dietary fiber) and it also fills me up better than the sugary cereal and I can go longer without eating.

I am feelling really good today.  Thanks to the support of all of you, I have worked out each day for the last 3 days.  I know that doesn’t sound like much, but it’s the first time I have been able to work out 3 days in a row since I had the baby. I actually like to workout, but with kids, work, and housework there doesn’t seem to be time to workout until the kids go to bed and by then I am so tired that I just want to go to bed. But on Monday I woke up early so I could workout before getting my son ready for bed, Yesterday I took the dog for a walk while the kids were eating dinner, then todayI actually was able to workout during nap time (all 3 girls actually napped at the same time   that is very rare). I know a lot of you work out a lot more than that, but I am happy that I was able to do that much.

I thought I should take a moment to explain my profile pic. I am very self conscious, so I avoid having my picture taken. I love pictures and photography, I just make sure that I am on the other side of the camera. In doing this I extemely limited the number of pictures I could choose from. I could have used a photo from the hospital, but no one looks good in those. So I used a pregnancy photo. I figured that it had something to do with my problem so why not. I gained over 50 lbs during that pregnancy. I still have 20 left. I know I looked like I was going to explode, but the baby ended up weighing 10 lbs, 14 oz.

I am new to this.  I just signed up and I am looking for support.  I don’t know where to begin when it comes to weight lose.   I have 4 young children.  The last one was born in September, and now I need to try to lose my baby weight (I gained 50 lbs, I have 20 left) as well as 15 lbs I wanted to lose before baby.  I need accountability and support.  I am so glad to get that opportunity with all of you.